Typhoon Pedring

When Typhoon Pedring (Nesat) hit the Philippines, the province of Bulacan was one of the most devastated areas. Unfortunately, our house welcomed, for the very first time, the flood triggered by this tropical depression.

MOM @ 21

Mom @ 21. And I never dreamt of becoming one. Everything seemed to fall when I first knew that I was pregnant. At 21, I didn't see the reason why I need to pursue the journey of being a "Mom". I have decided. I wanted to abort the baby.

I graduated April last year and for me this year is just a good start to another chapter of my life; making even not all of my dreams come true. Though I was a product of prestigious university in the country, my first job was a contractual factory worker. And I felt so embarrassed with what I became after I graduated. Yet my hope did not let me blame the world. I did my best to like and love my first job. While employed, I kept on sending my CV to different companies and fortunately I was able to make it to the final interview. I did accept the job offer as Business Development Researcher (BDR). The position title was so overwhelming. But after two days of travelling from Bulacan to Ortigas, I have decided to quit the job. I felt so exhausted. I didn't have enough time to take a break; the following day of the last day of my work as a factory worker was my first day of work as BDR. I gave up.

Still, God is good. after I quit my second job, I was able to find another job; my third job in a span of three months. I experienced lot of trials and challenges during my first month on my third job until I discovered that I was pregnant.

The stupid part, the father of my child happened to be my ex-boyfriend then. Though he's my ex we still treat each other special; an example of no-string-attached relationship.

When I saw the two lines in the kit, my initial reaction was to deny the truth. I kept on convincing myself that I did something wrong to cause that kind of result. Maybe the time of the day that I did the test. I had a sleepless night. So the following day, I repeated the test. And I felt numb. Positive.

To abort the baby was the first thing that came into my mind. However my ex-boyfriend decided to pursue the journey. He and his father came into our house to tell my situation to my parents and to plan the wedding. Then, I finally hear wedding bells.

"I pronounce you husband and wife (05.21.11)"

Define fast phase of life. That's my life.

The blessing of our Lord made me realized that everything happens for a reason. Forget my dreams, forget my frustrations. This child is a gift from heaven.

Jobelle

IMY

matagal ko ng gustong magsulat kaya lang tinamad ako. just to update myself about what had happened in my life this past few days i finally decided to write one. i failed the exam at EMCI. sobrang nalungkot ako, but then the company gave me another chance to take an exam for another vacancy. as of the moment i am not expecting anything. masyadong mahirap yung exam para umasa. after the exam i went to victoria, laguna without my parent's permission. (if i'm going to read this in the future, i know where i go that time).

another side of my life:

pumunta sa bahay namin ang kaklase ko nung elementary na itago nalang natin sa pangalang Jobelle. inaanak ko ang anak kaya sa makatuwid ay kumare ko na sya. dala ng kahirapan, highschool lang ang tinapos ni Jobelle. marahil dahil na rin sa kanyang kalagyan ay maaga syang nakapag-asawa. matagal din naming pinagkwentuhan ang kanyang buhay, kung pano sya di sinasadyang nagkapamilya at kung pano nabubuhay sa araw-araw.

ang lumang camera:

bitbit ang pag-asang makakatisod ng pera, dala ni Jobelle ang isang lumang camera. pinagbebenta nya daw ito sa halagang hindi nya alam. hindi ako naging interesado, sa halip ay nagwentuhan na lamang kami. matapos ang aming kwentuhan inabutan ko sya ng isang daang piso.

ang sangkap ng cortal:

naikwento nya sakin kung paano nya sinubukang ilaglag ang munting anghel na hindi nya inaasahan. produkto ng "one night stand" wika nga ng iba. hanggang pitong buwan na ang kanyang dinadala umiinom pa rin sya ng cortal. ngunit sa labang ito, panalo ang munting sanggol. ang dahilan ni Jobelle: "matabang na kasi ang sangkap ng cortal ngayon".

Side C:

galing kami kila lester ngayong gabi. madaming nag-iinuman. nakapasa kasi si lerwin sa board exam. naalala ko ang mga kaibigan k sa aking unibersidad. halos gabi-gabi kaming umiinom, naglalasing at nagsusunog ng baga. masaya ang buhay, akala ko. pero madami na ang nagyari, madami na ang nagbago.

Ruler

Katatapos ko lang kumain ng itlog na pula at kamatis. Nagtataka lang ako bakit kaya itlog na pula ang pangkaraniwang tawag sa "salted egg" kahit hindi naman talaga pula ang kulay ng itlog na pula? Naisip ko nalang, "Whatever".

Kinakabahan ako ngayon. Bakit? Dahil bukas na ang ika isang linggo ng application ko sa ESS Manufacturing Corp. Inc. at dahil dyan bukas na ang paghuhukom. Madami na din akong natanggap na rejection notice mula sa iba't ibang kompanya. Pero sa totoo lang, hindi ko masyadong inisip ang lahat ng iyon. Ngunit sa pagkakataong ito nararamdaman ko na ang pagkabigo ay magiging dahilan ng aking matinding kalungkutan. Bakit?

Natuwa ako sa EMCI dahil habang nag eexam ako alam ko na alam ko ang ginagawa ko at pinag-aralan ko ito. Hindi katulad sa iba kong pinag-applyan na parang basta magkatrabaho na lang. Sabi nga ni Aryan "think positive" dahil kung ano ang iniisip mo yun ang mangyayari sayo. Syempre pwera nalang sa mga imposibleng bagay na hindi kayang maabot sa pamamagitan ng sipag at tyaga.

Tinawagan na si Aryan, at alam ko na tatawagan na din ako para sa isang interview. Sabi nga ni Bro. Mike Velarde ng El Shaddai, angkinin mo na at darating.

melba

I really admire the blog entries of K Brosas.While looking for a good show in TV, KCx caught my attention; the life of K Brosas was featured in the show. Then, KC Concepcion asked about K's blog. Like what inspire her to write.Poof! I want to have my own.

Actually, I have lots of blogging sites and I really have fun reading previous post specially if the story happened a long time ago. Because of my hectic schedule during my senior years I forgot to update my entries. Btw, my posts alaways talk about my own experiences. And reading my post makes me feel nostalgic.

So there, I wanted to have a wordpress account however I dunno how to start. So I chose blogger. Primarily because I already have my account on blogger. The problem is I forgot my password. I decided to sign up for a new account. But then, God is good. The system did not recognized my registration since the e-mail address I entered was already in use. And I knew it was me who registered it once upon a time. Through the help of whatever application, I was able to retrieve my long lost account here in blogger. And I found myself reminiscing.

Meanwhile, I want to give you some updates on my, should I say career right now. Finally I graduated last April 24, 2010 and sad to say I am now part of the unemployed population. So please, hire me. I am a BS Development Communication graduate. I don't wanna explain what Devcom is all about. I already encountered so much of this.

With regard to my love life, I finally met my man. His name is Leo Anglo Cruz. And good news! Since I met him I learned how to control myself and little by little I am able to go away with my vices.

I can say that I am living a good life and I think a well-compensated and stable work will make my life a better life.

totally insane

damn it! naeskandalo ko sa elbi square. badtrip. tulog. hindi. soundtrip. oo. nahihiya. oo. takot. oo

KABIT

i was hurt. bakit kaya? feeling ko there is something missing in my life. Something or someone? -sigh- . I admit naiinggit ako kay joie, she was a very lucky girl. Kung ganun lang sana situation namin ni Carlo, Im willing to take the risk. Kaya lang sobrang magkaiba talaga.

Kung si LJ naipakilala si Joie sa buong angkan niya, si Carlo tinatago ako sa lahat ng kamag-anak niya. And that really hurts Carlo! hahahaha

Kailangan ko ng magbago next year. I must be serious in life at my age. Di na ko bata. Saka i should know the difference between the right and the wrong. Masaya gumawa ng mali, kaya nga mahirap bumitaw. Yun nga lang dahil sa hindi pa natin nararanasan gawin kung ano yung tama, hindi pa natin alam na mas masaya pala gumawa ng tama. Parang linya lang sa UPCAT the movie, wala kang karapatang sabihin na ayaw mo hanggat hindi mo pa nasusubukan. Pero syempre in every rule there is an exemption.

Medyo bagot na nga rin ako sa buhay single. Sawa na rin sa mga flings. Ayoko magkaron ng tatak. Gusto ko ng seryosong relasyon sa tamang tao.

Oo, tama. Hindi dapat nagmamadali. Darating din yan. Katulad ni Joie, hindi naman sya nagmadali. Naghintay din sya. Ewan ko ba kung pessimistic ako pagdating sa relasyon nila pero nireserba ko na yung kanang balikat ko para kay Joie.

Sana maalis ko na bisyo ko. Ayoko na. Nasubukan ko na kaya may karapatan na kong umayaw.