MOM @ 21

Mom @ 21. And I never dreamt of becoming one. Everything seemed to fall when I first knew that I was pregnant. At 21, I didn't see the reason why I need to pursue the journey of being a "Mom". I have decided. I wanted to abort the baby.

I graduated April last year and for me this year is just a good start to another chapter of my life; making even not all of my dreams come true. Though I was a product of prestigious university in the country, my first job was a contractual factory worker. And I felt so embarrassed with what I became after I graduated. Yet my hope did not let me blame the world. I did my best to like and love my first job. While employed, I kept on sending my CV to different companies and fortunately I was able to make it to the final interview. I did accept the job offer as Business Development Researcher (BDR). The position title was so overwhelming. But after two days of travelling from Bulacan to Ortigas, I have decided to quit the job. I felt so exhausted. I didn't have enough time to take a break; the following day of the last day of my work as a factory worker was my first day of work as BDR. I gave up.

Still, God is good. after I quit my second job, I was able to find another job; my third job in a span of three months. I experienced lot of trials and challenges during my first month on my third job until I discovered that I was pregnant.

The stupid part, the father of my child happened to be my ex-boyfriend then. Though he's my ex we still treat each other special; an example of no-string-attached relationship.

When I saw the two lines in the kit, my initial reaction was to deny the truth. I kept on convincing myself that I did something wrong to cause that kind of result. Maybe the time of the day that I did the test. I had a sleepless night. So the following day, I repeated the test. And I felt numb. Positive.

To abort the baby was the first thing that came into my mind. However my ex-boyfriend decided to pursue the journey. He and his father came into our house to tell my situation to my parents and to plan the wedding. Then, I finally hear wedding bells.

"I pronounce you husband and wife (05.21.11)"

Define fast phase of life. That's my life.

The blessing of our Lord made me realized that everything happens for a reason. Forget my dreams, forget my frustrations. This child is a gift from heaven.